忙碌碌的晚上

前几个小时才收到assignment里须有的内容，结果又匆匆忙忙赶了出来。。。

明天还需要交两个assignment和一个presentation，再一次感觉我真的不会管理时间。。。

今天还和我的屋友，Chia Sing 有一段愉快的交谈 ，长达几小时，考论我们的未来，兴趣，家人，朋友。。。 我也忘了上一次与人交谈如此的投入是何时了。。。

看到某某人再一次的“思考人生的道理”， 也想到以前的自己。。。

再一次回忆道前一年，我也成度过那一个痛苦的星期。。。我也不知道是逃避还是面对。。。

但是我确实失去了自己。。。 也失去了她~~~

也一成后悔去破坏我和她之间的一切。。。她的大量实在令我惭愧。。。

我没让周围的人知道，虽然隐约觉得一部人的人察觉。。。。

这一切的之后，我和她也发生了变化，感情仍好，却不再亲切。。。

那一天的相遇，那一日的邂逅，那一时的相处，那一刻的温情，那一秒的相见。。。

仍然在我的回忆，毕竟那是愉快的。。。

收集

有史以来，我第一次购买了2套轻小说，刀剑神域 和 加速世界。。。
合共用了近300令吉。。。。。

这两套都已经出了动漫，而且也非常热门。。。尤其是喜欢玩游戏的人。。

这不是第一部描述3D的游戏，但却非常受欢迎。。

第一部描述3D游戏的动漫应该是 .hack series罢。。可惜我无法找到有关的下载来源。。。

回来到刀剑神域，这是描述这第一部的３Ｄ游戏的产品开始出现在日本，而且迎来了大量玩家。。。

但是，当游戏正式靠跑时，制造者--> 天才博士， 既然把退出游戏的选项给取出了。。。

这让3,000名玩家被困扰了游戏里头。。。而且，一旦在游戏里身亡，他们的大脑也会被操纵器给破坏。。。

因此，他们得一方面尽力破解游戏，另一方面也得小心自己的能力来对付妖涭。。。

里头的男主角是一位顶尖的玩家，由于他过人的毅力，忍耐以及能力，他得到了唯一的技能，双刀流。。。也仅此而在走上了一段于人不同的道路。。。。

mid term test

Test for me just a simple thing... maybe ?

Even I no study for it, I still can get a well result for now..

Compare to form 5, I am totally lost? 

Me of the Form5, actually what are thinking at the years? 

Which can make you so hardworking and get so much of passion to do the jobs?

because of teacher? because of environment? because of family?

Nothing is different for the me and form 5, just I need to take care higher amount of allowance from my family....

Back to the test, due to my experience on cheating in exam on my secondary school times. Even I can able to finish all the question fast, but I still will "observe" answers from friends that sit around me.... haha...

This times, I saw my friend had do wrong a question... but I still unable to notice him because of the examinator stand beside me... Let me feel like really 无能为力...

Sometimes we cannot do nothing even you know he is doing wrong.. we just can observe him until the end...

有时候看到自己的朋友错了，也不能做什么，只能在一旁默默看着罢了。。。。

Review myself

I very surprise that I want to be programmer that long ago @@

Seriously very shock but I do not know why I want to be programmer at the time too ~ haha

But review back my profile on last few year... I feel like I am over stress myself too long le..

and not too responsible as well..

very easy to go down also....haha

Friends - at once time is really important for me, maybe now too.. but somehow in deep.. I not really want to rely on them too much.. maybe is experience from the past ?

There are consider quite a number of friends I have, But for the true friends, I cannot think much.. at least when I have trouble those list will not appear in my minds.

People always say 出外靠朋友, I did get my helps from my friends when I am face problem, but there a lot of number want make me as tools as well.... this world where I currently stay is too reality. Everyone is just getting what they want and just keep on rush to it.

Last few day, I saw a book, inside have one topic i quite like. It is talk about sharing. The story is about they are 2 boat are going into a river, but the river only can fit one boat. Both of them want to get quickly to move inside the river and at the end hang on it....keep on fight with other sometimes cannot make your target success as well.

For the yesterday me, my mood is starting get back good already :)
and for past year d me, thanks for you hardworking to write this post and make me feel better d,
although you are very bad on these years.

Quite A Time

There are quite a time that i no update my blog, about 2 years no update anything in my blog.

If not because of darren, one of my friend in TARC and also GK gang suddenly talk about blog with me.

Recently, I am quite down but I still do not understand why so...

because of my result drop ?
because of my attitude problem ?
because of my financial problem ?
because of no longer passion to my study ?
because of laziness?
because of my friends?
because of I scare for my future?

I am really no idea what I am doing as well....

totally lost my direction somehow...

rethinking back what should I need to do in my future ??

maybe a programmer ?
maybe a software developer?
maybe a system analysis ?
maybe a hacker?
maybe a be machine ?
maybe a saleman?
maybe a assistant?
maybe supporter ??
or maybe be a novelist?

I am really dont know what I need...

After study the entrepreneur course, I become more scare to my future...

but somehow i should make some target for myself as well..

currenly let me make a simple target.

let me buy a house on 30 years and able pay off it before 50 age old..

my monthly need to be 5k on 30 years old and my investment should have at least 100k....

quite wondering i able to do it or not but at least i need to try my best..

Let try be programmer in my life first ~ maybe it not tat bad and hard for me.. even many people tell me  it is
waste all the time in future and no life....

Somehow... I starting feel like want to grab a girl friend as well.. maybe because of my friend affection bah.. haha...

maybe having a small family is not that bad ? just let me be greedy and selfish a bit bah....

sorry to the Earth, that I also destroying you.. but I still try my best to help you also... try my best to reduce the resource will be used by us...the human....