Quite A Time

There are quite a time that i no update my blog, about 2 years no update anything in my blog.

If not because of darren, one of my friend in TARC and also GK gang suddenly talk about blog with me.

Recently, I am quite down but I still do not understand why so...

because of my result drop ?
because of my attitude problem ?
because of my financial problem ?
because of no longer passion to my study ?
because of laziness?
because of my friends?
because of I scare for my future?

I am really no idea what I am doing as well....

totally lost my direction somehow...

rethinking back what should I need to do in my future ??

maybe a programmer ?
maybe a software developer?
maybe a system analysis ?
maybe a hacker?
maybe a be machine ?
maybe a saleman?
maybe a assistant?
maybe supporter ??
or maybe be a novelist?

I am really dont know what I need...

After study the entrepreneur course, I become more scare to my future...

but somehow i should make some target for myself as well..

currenly let me make a simple target.

let me buy a house on 30 years and able pay off it before 50 age old..

my monthly need to be 5k on 30 years old and my investment should have at least 100k....

quite wondering i able to do it or not but at least i need to try my best..

Let try be programmer in my life first ~ maybe it not tat bad and hard for me.. even many people tell me  it is
waste all the time in future and no life....

Somehow... I starting feel like want to grab a girl friend as well.. maybe because of my friend affection bah.. haha...

maybe having a small family is not that bad ? just let me be greedy and selfish a bit bah....

sorry to the Earth, that I also destroying you.. but I still try my best to help you also... try my best to reduce the resource will be used by us...the human....